Dark And Love Poetry - AlponiA Film And Publishing Industry San Juan Puerto Rico 00924

"Shocking Truth and Lies":

I believed in you
I believed all your lies
now I'm confused
I don't know what's right

You've been telling me
so many lies
that I don't know what to believe
except what I see with my eyes
and what I feel inside
'cause if it were for my thoughts
you'd be dead already

Nobody can hear my screams anymore
my fists breaking and painting with blood the walls
my spirit is now extinct, it's just a thought
I believed in you and now I love you more
I guess it is denial, I guess it is just pride
but I can't differentiate between your words
I don't know in which world our lives belong
I guess I'm going away with all your thoughts

I'm going to live this life as an undead asshole
so no one else in the world can hurt my gonads
with all this lies that you've been telling me
I guess, life's harder to live and believe

And I don't know why I believed in you
and started loving you since the day I met you
I guess I was too depressed to know who the fuck were you
Until I was a little bit better and I was shocked to know the truth

But you can say whatever you want to shock me
whatever you want to impress me
or whatever you want to make me hate you
and I will not believe any word you say
'cause I know there's a better place to love you than this Earth
I went directly trough a black hole in time
while I was in a coma and almost dying
you were in the other side waiting for me and crying
but to this day I'm almost black and flat
'cause since I lost you I'm trying to keep your soul
and it's so difficult to hold a spirit only with my thoughts
I guess I need you cloned in order to restore peace at my home
I have my mind in drugs, and my heart feeling for you

I knew that something bad was going to happen
but I let it happen anyway
I wanted so hard to be so fucked up
so I had the reason to kill myself
and the flat line started sounding
and my already rotten body started to die

I knew you were behind me
I knew you were at my side
and I didn't care to live any longer
'cause you were already dying
but with lies you made me fall asleep
and with lies you started to kill me
while I gave everything, including my life

It was so good to see and hear you
it was too good to be true
I knew what was coming for me
it was death dressed as cupid on grass
and I fell to her claws, I fell into her lies
knowing that my mind had other thoughts at hand
I gave my life for you, I gave all my dreams
I gave up all my feelings to your heart
and I'm still here trapped in this world
feeling humiliated and full of sorrow
waiting to listen to more of your words
those ones that made me bleed once and before

I guess I'm a fan of your poetry
I guess I'm going to fall forever in your traps
I guess I have lost all my dignity and all hope in my strife
but I love to be like this, 'cause is the only way I feel loved
I guess it's just the depression or just a thought

so, whenever you want to see me
please, come to my grave
please, don't bring me live flowers
I just hate they way they smell
better put your perfume
better put your vaginal fluids one more time
'cause I'm obsessed with the way you smell
even when you are dead
I can still imagine how it used to be
after all that rain
now the rain is falling from my eyes
and don't know what else to hide
I can't hide anything from you
'cause you live inside my body, heart and mind
I don't know how I will end this sentences
I guess I'm going to wait
until you come back home
so I can be your husband again
and forever love me,
like when you swore on the night of our wedding
I will still be here dreaming of this day
and I guess I will make it true anyway
I know we belong together
even when we are both dead
I guess everything ends in the end.

© ArkhangeL D. E. KoyotE
dekoyote@prtc.net