Wednesday, June 13, 2007
"Jealousy"
It's always so complicated
feeling like this
I was warned
long before, while falling in love
that I would feel this...
jealousy
It's like remembering old stupid fucking disgustipated times and on karnage
it's like ripping off my ribs
to eat all of them at once
it's like snapping all my fingers at once
it's just a feel like I'm going to die
it's just like you planning my assassination
having multiple alibis
and I'm here
being a conformist
with shaken hands
and crossed arms
even when I'm secure
I don't trust anyone
it's always so manipulative
feeling like shit
but I was worried
I was worried
long before falling in love
that I would feel this...
jealousy
Must comprehend
I must understand
that I'm not the only one
I'm not the only one
and I have blocked my heart
I have yet to realize
I'm not the only one
not the only one
not the only one
you feel
and I feel
and I feel this...
jealousy
Nevermind... you will win
win this time
as you always do
as you always do
Nevermind... I feel like crap
This is killing me
killing me
All this fucking shit all at once
I still remember that
that...
all you've said to me
All I'm supposed to believe
but they were all lies, lies, lies
so, goodbye
I knew it will happen to you
and I was scared of myself
myself
I let everything go down
the life I was into
I've changed, changed
to feel like shit again
again
but why, why?
I did it on purpose
I missed feeling like an asshole
but now, now
I can't be
what I was
five months ago
© Arkhenisse Denangel 27 May 2007 749pm-805pm
© ArkhangeL D. E. KoyotE